Monday, March 19, 2012

St Patricks Day

Zachs parent came to town this weekend and we went downtown! It was so crazy!!! Took us an hour and a half to get to river north! (normally its about 30-40mins) Crazy crazy drunk people everywhere! But we had fun :) we also went to the girl and the goat for dinner and it was awesome :) so fun!!

Tonight, Zach and I are going to the Black Keys concert at the United Center! I'm very excited! This will be our first concert together! (we are also celebrating 6 years of being together next week!) woo!

Monday, March 5, 2012

Daily Struggles

Everyday is different for me. For the past 18months, my life has revolved around pain. My body took two steps backwards in September 2011, when I had to change medications, and ever since then the pain has kept me sedentary. It's been very difficult to look at myself and know that I am not useless. I feel that way sometimes. I cannot study or even read for pleasure!

In January I went and saw a neurosurgeon (he says i have a condition called anesthesia dolorosa) and he told me I had very few options. 1: very radical brain surgery to insert a brain stimulator to decrease the firing of nerves in order to relieve the pain. (not gunna happen) or 2: time. This is the option I am going with but it's really hard! He gave me a projected healing time--> a few more years? I am trying another medication to try and calm the nerves down but so far I haven't had any improvement.

I'm really trying to be positive and see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's definitely a struggle. I've had to put a lot of faith in God to get me through this because I CANNOT do this on my own.